Good Morning my lovelies.
Today’s post will not be about my eats, recipes, or how badly I behaved at the Super Bowl Party.
Its a day for me bare my soul. To shed a tear on your proverbial shoulder, if i may…
As you all know, Henry returned from his business trip last week. I expected it to be somewhat difficult to transition into “us” again, but had hope and faith that Love would prevail.
I saw Henry… but it wasnt the Henry that I remember. It was a beaten and depressed version of the once happy and smiley man that I fell in love with. He came to visit but I could tell something was different. I couldnt put my finger on it but i attributed it to perhaps nerves or shock to the changes once again in his life.
But then he stood me up on the day we planned to celebrate our anniversary.
And he has not answered a single phone call from me since then…
My conclusions…
This version of Henry has been altered. Maybe he fell in love with someone in Ecuador. Maybe he cheated. There are so many things running through my mind.
But right now, I see that this was a true test in our relationship. I did everything that I could to keep it going but it wasnt enough. He gave up on me. And for a moment I wanted to give up on myself… but I cant do that! I have never been in a situation like this but I feel that its going to make me an even stronger woman than before!
The point of this post today though is not to feel sorry for me… But its to those women that are in dead end relationships and dont want to be alone. I was with henry for a little over a year. During that year I have found so many deal breakers that i was willing to just ignore or hope would change all because I was so unwilling to be alone.
So today is the start of a new self-loving journey. I have found some really amazing support through this blog and I hope that you all can find strength in yourselves to love yourself MORE.
Henry has never read this blog but I hope he one day sees how stupid he was…mainly because he let an amazing woman (me) get away.
We will be back to our scheduled posts shortly!

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